I have a lot on my mind and my wise and wonderful mother advised me to share it all in a blog, so here goes.
I'm restless. I've just had an incredible Christmas and New Year, actually an incredible 2007 in New Zealand, and yet...I'm restless. I see others around me who are enjoying their jobs and what they do for a living and I'm hit with a longing. I want to enjoy the job that I work. But as I seek to find yet another temporary job, I'm hit with a dread. I'm not sure I'll wake up day after day looking forward to going to work. And I don't think I'll come home feeling like I've enjoyed what I just did. Oh, what a pessimistic attitude for a Christian to have! Aren't we as Christians supposed to view our jobs as working for the Lord? Aren't we supposed to be satisfied with with wherever the Lord places us in life? Well, whatever your thoughts about that I know I'm not satisfied. I speak with the Lord about this all the time. No need to lie to Him, He already knows. I wish I could be excited about going to an office job, but something inside me screams, "NOOOO! I DON'T WANT TO WORK IN AN OFFICE!!!" Well, I'll keeping clinging to the Lord to get me through these last few months of work in NZ.
I watch too much TV. What do you do when you're bored waiting for a job to be offered to you and you're tired from the stress of money woes? You veg in front of the TV watching any old talk show, sitcom, movie, or music video that comes across the screen. It's funny to me how many Kiwi, British, and American shows I watch. Especially since I haven't watched real TV since I was in College almost 5 years ago, and even then I hardly watched it as much as I do now. I'm fascinated by the travel shows, I'm amused by some of the British shows, I'm reminiscent about some of the shows from my childhood, and I'm sick of seeing commercials. Speaking of commericials, there are some pretty amusing NZ ones out there. I think my favorite commercial right now is the "Don't Drink and Fry" commercial. It goes somewhat like this: "Everyday many Kiwi blokes go home after drinking and fry --- themselves." This commercial is my favorite not because it's done in any particularly exciting way. It's my favorite because of the message. I've heard of don't drink and drive, but don't drink and fry? I'm not saying this is not a valid issue, because it probably is, in NZ and the US, but it's a funny slogan to me. Maybe America should adopt the slogan "Friends don't let friends drink and fry." Let people ponder that for a bit.
One more thought. I now have less than four months left in NZ. At first, I was sad that my time in NZ would be over, but now I'm kind of looking forward to it. I miss the familiar of America, although I don 't think it'll seem very familiar when I go back. I also miss theater. My heart is longing to get back on a stage, get in a costume, and perform. I also miss my family. I have yet to see my nephew who will be one by the time I return to the US. So many things drawing me home. But still a few that are keeping me here...
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5 comments:
Tiana,
Not being happy at your job - especially in another country and knowing your time there will soon be over - is perfercly normal and healthy. That discontent is what drives us to continue searching for that which satisfies our soul and eventually leads us to where God wants us to be.
Just a reminder that you are loved and prayed for and treasured as a friend. All will be well.
Peace and joy and contentment, my friend.
yeah, what she said
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Whether you have a great job or whether you have a bad job, either way you are right!. It's all a matter of how you choose to approach the environment you are in. (wasn't it Chuck Swindoll who said that 98% of what you get out of life is based on your attitude?)
Remember when I worked temp jobs for a couple years, then worked in the mailroom of DFAS? God taught me so much about myself during those years, before He blessed me with the job I have now.
The apostle Paul was raised practically from birth to be a Pharisee - the elite of the elite in the Jewish community. But he gave up all the opportunities and trappings that lifestyle would afford in order to serve Christ, whom he loved, to be a tentmaker. Yes, a TENTMAKER! That would be like someone graduating from Harvard, in position to be a great surgeon or statesman, and giving it up to work on an assembly line or to clean bathrooms in the airport! But Paul didnt complain, he saw the big picture - it's not "what" you are doing so much as it is "who " you are serving!
Mara once told me when she was in college, she had a job as a shepherdess for a summer in Montana. Only, the rancher didnt have a sheepdog, so SHE had to chase after the wayward sheep on foot and round them up (remember the dogs at the Agridome?) She laughs about it now, but she didnt then, However, she knows from that experience that she is able to do anything the LORD asks her to do, because she has done that which was less than to her liking and survived.
Don't lose sight of the great gift God has given you to live in NZ. You can survive even an office job for 4 months! I know, because you've been in office jobs before. Sometimes a job can be a means to an end. I have a map of the world in my cube at work, along with a "Lonely Planet" calendar that takes me to a different part of the world each month, and a "1,000 places to see before you die" day by day calendar on my desk - new country every day! That way, if I get overwhelmed or discouraged at work, I can appreciate that my job affords me opportunities in life - one of which is travelling - that wouldnt probably have if I didnt work.
Hum - I'm employed at a good job waiting to travel, and you are travelling, waiting for a good job - I ponder.
Trust in the Lord for He is good! Besides, I understand there ares some sheep farms in the South Island that may be looking for help ... (hehehe)
I love you -MOM
(P.S. I bet you wish my "post a comment was still in Korean?)
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