First Blog of 2009

In an effort to make this blog seem special I made it the 'first' of something - in this case - the new year.

But really it's a blog like any other. The only difference is it's been a while. I used to think that when bad things happened in my life I would avoid writing a blog. Then I found that when good things happened in my life I also found myself postponing writing a blog. Now I see that even when life is just blah/boring I can ignoring the whole blogging thing altogether. So, pretty much I have to be in the mood to write a blog.

Well folks, today is that day!

As you've probably guessed already life has not been so exciting for me. Even Christmas barely made a memorable mark in my life these past few months. I need some excitement.

We got a new president yesterday. (Or in the wonderful words of Burns with LifeFM in New Zealand. "Barack Obama started a new job.") And yet, I woke up today feeling no different. I guess America with Bush feels pretty much the same as America with Obama.

Work at Starbucks holds its exciting 'moments,' but receiving a steadily decreasing paycheck is not so exciting. Corporate has cut hours all across the country. At first we were told it was because Christmas business is slower, but now I suspect it's because their stocks have gone down. Especially since business has increased but hours have not. Hmm, this can't be good for customer satisfaction. Too few workers causes even longer waits in line (not to mention frazzled workers). It's hard to get in the necessary 10 minute break when only two people are working on the floor. So, now I'm searching for a second job. Businesses can't really expect you to be loyal to them when they aren't loyal to you.

Theater is...yeah...not really happening. I found an audition, finally, that I'm excited to go to. It's for summer theater AND I'd get paid. Very big plus! But I have to constantly fight doubts about my acting/singing ability. Why do I love doing something that causes such heartache? It's in my blood I guess. I also fight anxiety about being able to pay bills by working two jobs and doing theater. Is this possible? I'm my own worse enemy in this battle. I've gotta focus on the Lord more in this situation. He'll give me wisdom if I only listen!

Well, I'm kind of tired of writing so I guess I'll end here. Maybe things won't look so blah the next time I write. I'll leave with this quote which I pulled out of The Lord of the Rings: the Two Towers, which I'm reading right now.

"Eomer: The world is all grown strange!...How shall a man judge what to do in such times?
Aragorn: As he ever has judged. Good and ill have not changed since yesteryear...It is a man's part to discern them as much in the Golden Wood (World) as in his own house."